Ugly Parts

Sometimes I see things in myself that truly make me sad. Inconsistencies in logic and understanding, assumptions and judgements about others, crass, inconsiderate, damaging, idle words, selfish, thoughtless, irreversable actions.

If you ever get a glimpse at my worst moments, I am truly sorry. They make me loose sleep. I can be a terrible person.

The worst part, is that it's usually the people I care most about who are affected by my inexcuseable stupidity. I'm most sorry to you.

I want to find solace and shelter from this, in the fact that probably everyone has some part of themselves that is revilable. "I'm no different than everyone else." But that just makes me dissapointed in humanity.

I think that an apology is nothing more than an admission of regretful wrongdoing. From that point, progress can me made.

To everyone (yes, this means you):
I apologize.

Now, it's up to me.